Mental Health
O ye, of little faith

O ye, of little faith

  April is the hardest month of the year for me. Repressed trauma banging on the door of my conscious, demanding to be let out is one of the reasons my most intense depressive episodes come up during this part of the year.
Once Upon a Midnight Dreary

Once Upon a Midnight Dreary

  My life is not an easy one for just anyone to live. This is not just me grasping for attention; the same thing can be said about anyone else’s life. 
Defective Magical Girl: Channeling “Shortcomings” Like Usagi Tsukino

Defective Magical Girl: Channeling “Shortcomings” Like Usagi Tsukino

  There is nothing more ironic than a magical girl without great powers. Imagine if Sailor Moon never met Luna and never realized her true identity as a Moon Princess.
FAT: A Saga

FAT: A Saga

A few days ago:        I’m working in class with a friend, and two of her friends—who I’ll call Friend 1 and Friend 2—are having an especially loud conversation near us.
The Illusion of Recovery

The Illusion of Recovery

Recovery from a broken leg takes 6 months. Recovery from a C-section takes 6 weeks. Recovery from a gallbladder takes 7-10 days. Recovery from a mental illness? A lifetime. Since August 2015, I have been in recovery from depression and anxiety. It’s now January 2016 and recovery is still very difficult. I’m not where I...
End Zone

End Zone

  [Trigger warning for suicide and suicidal ideation, attempted murder, gendered slurs, mention of drowning, and child abuse.] I dreamed I made a goal. When I wake up they tell me it wasn’t a dream. And it wasn’t a goal, either. It was a touchdown—that’s why you’re in the hospital.
Healing

Healing

  Closure with my past is no tears streaming down my face and no scars. Closure with my past means picking out good moments amongst all the bad ones, to be able to reflect without anguish. Closure with my past means remembering those who wronged me and not necessarily forgiving them, but accepting their actions...
Revisiting The Visit

Revisiting The Visit

Illustration by Jaye Elizabeth Johnson.   You don’t have to turn my grandma into a monster! Grandpa’s odd tendencies don’t make him a maniac! Sure, media such as movies, have tapped into society’s gerontophobia, or fear of the elderly, and ageism, but to add ableism into it, too? M. Night Shyamalan, there is another way!...
Horror Can Be A Home

Horror Can Be A Home

  “It is the middle ground between light and shadow, between science and superstition, and it lies between the pit of man’s fears and the summit of his knowledge. This is the dimension of imagination.” -Rod Serling, The Twilight Zone Fear is a universal emotion, and thanks to that, it is easy to call on...
Surviving the Cycle: Mental Illness and the Seasons

Surviving the Cycle: Mental Illness and the Seasons

Illustration by Jaye Elizabeth Johnson. Our planet continues to ceaselessly revolve around the sun, and autumn is upon us in the Northern hemisphere. Some of the things that come along with this circular motion can be frustrating at times.
Mind(fulness) over matter

Mind(fulness) over matter

Illustration by Thuy Seecof.  Over a month ago, I watched a video on youtube about a meditation style called mindfulness. I took some real interest in it. I tried to practice it, watched a few videos, found it hard, then gave up. Then, the other day in our very first session, my new therapist asked...
For Jenny

For Jenny

Illustration by Ari.   Everyone already knows that the pressures of society are dangerous and even deadly, pushing people to their limits in order to try to fit in. But when someone is already struggling with addiction, these prejudices have an even stronger effect. Such opinions like “People can will themselves out an of addiction...