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Illustration by Gabrielle Conlon.

Darkness
My best kept secret–
The world is already full of unstable girls
Holding hands with their fears
Accepting candy from their doubts
Letting lies into their hearts

Keep this between us
They wouldn’t understand
You don’t want them to separate us
You’re nothing without me

In my loneliness I fell victim to
The greatest scam
A diet of self hatred
Results guaranteed

It kept me fed
My stomach bloated with regret
My throat constricting on undigested wants
My brain sated on dread

I shrank to nothing
It consumed me whole

Such a ferocious hunger
For nothing at all

The illusion of control
In my hands
Frenzied
Shaking
Urgent
I coaxed the darkness out of me
Laid it out for all to see

It said nothing–
Disappointment knows no words